eell1ot has been through a lot of different sounds over the years – electronica, alt rock, hip hop, and nu-metal – but this one strips everything back. It came out of a rough period with depression, written as a kind of promise to himself about who he still wanted to become.
The song opens with full guitars, accompanied by drums and bass, a quiet, solid foundation that stamps the groove right from the intro. The vocals then come in, soft with a tired texture, while still retaining their loudness and placement in the mix. The vocals, guitars, and drums sound raw and unprocessed in a way that makes the listen feel live, like you’re hearing him perform in real time.
The vocals get stronger and louder as the chorus builds, matching the instrumental as it opens up a bit more, and the transition between those quieter verses and the fuller chorus feels completely natural; nothing jumps or feels rushed. The background vocals add a rich, satisfying texture, and the drums hit with a sweet, textured snare while the guitars anchor everything underneath, holding the rhythm steady throughout. There’s intentionality in how all of it was put together: The composition and engineering are top-tier, with extra details in the sound design that make the whole soundscape feel polished without ever losing its raw, live quality.
And no more paraffin
And no more lies
And no more drinkin
So I’ll be mine
This song revolves around letting go of old habits and old versions of yourself, one by one. The repeated “and I wonder what will I be, who will I be” that runs through the whole track isn’t really a question with an answer; it’s more like someone sitting in the uncertainty of rebuilding themselves and being okay with not knowing yet.
“MISANTHROPE” is a calm and relatable song that sounds really relaxing and self-reflective, perfect for a quiet morning with your coffee. Take a listen below.
Written by Toyo Senpai
